Complicated

Let me start out by saying this blog may actually surprise you before you go jumping to conclusions. Yes, it only took a month. Of course he text me and of course knew exactly what to say. I love you, i miss you, can I see you? I'm ready. Let's do this, a relationship, me and you. What may actually surprise you, which surprised myself was my response, which was NO! Told him to leave me alone yet again and went on with my day.

Ok maybe that is not entirely true. Though I did tell him no, i can't lie and say that I didn't for a second want to desperately believe him and jump back into his arms. Isn't that partly what we always hope for when we are letting go of something that we never really wanted to? Maybe it is just me. But for some reason he remains to be to me what an addiction is to an addict. Perhaps I am in recovery but that doesn't mean that I don't think about the cravings.

Nonetheless, the song in the previous post seemed to sum up our relationship and I thought that I would just post it.