I am finally free

I realized that there will never be a perfect moment to say goodbye. There will always be things that you wish that you could have said. There will always be a small amount of hope that it won't be forever and a small amount of knowing that isn't for good. But there comes a point when you need to make decisions based upon rationale and not upon fairytales. When you cannot simply wish upon the stars in the sky. You need to trust that your head is in the right place even when your heart is not. There will always be those distinct moments that stick out in your mind that you will think back on and smile, but they are simply memories, made for a reason. Maybe because there are meant to be more, but just not with whom you think at the moment.

I said what I had been longing to say for so long. I finally mustered the courage and the strength to be true to myself and to my needs even though it is not how I wanted things to turn out. I wanted you to change. But life is not a fairy tale, you are not prince charming and I wear sneakers in the place of glass slippers. I finally said to your face goodbye and to your soul to let me go.

So tonight I will sleep on your side of the bed and take comfort in the emptiness and know that I did this for the good of my clarity and the good of my life. If I am superwoman, you will always be my kryptonite and I will always miss you even though people cannot understand why. Maybe we were never meant to either. You will forever hold a special place in my heart and I am grateful for the memories, but more grateful for the wonderful opportunities that I just created for my life!