Insomnia: My worst enemy

I have so many thoughts and ideas dancing around in my head that I am finding a hard time sleeping at night. Even in my sleep my mind is racing and I am dreaming about my life. I think it is my subconsciousness trying to give me answers that I seek and simply cannot seem to find. A few months back, when a friend told me that in six months my life would be more different than I ever expected, she wasn't lying. Here it has only been two months and I never expected I would be where I am at this moment.

My life continues to be busy and here I am trying to find more things to fill my life with. I am on this kick of doing things that I want to do which I am very proud of. I am slowly crossing things off of my to-do list. Such as today I made Carrie go rock climbing with me which was a great experience. I am thankful to have such a good friend who will come and try crazy things with me. My mother continues to not speak to me, which I have come to terms with. It is what it is and I am not going to go above and beyond to fix something when I am not the one with the problem. Perhaps I am being stubborn or difficult but I cannot handle the negativity right now in my life. I am trying to eliminate all negativity from my life in the first place.

I started dating this really great guy as well. It's ironic because we have been friends for years. Like seven years, us dating just sort of happened. I'm nervous because if it doesn't work out I don't want it to ruin a friendship, or multiple friendships since we are friends with a lot of the same people but I'm excited because at the same time it's the friendship that we share that is making it so great to be with him. We are taking things REALLY slow, which is nice because I've really only been single for four months. I'm not ready to be anybody's girlfriend quite yet. I'm still working really hard to accomplish a lot of things on my personal to do list, one day at a time.