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Sorry it has been almost a week since my last blog. I have been incredibly busy. Life just doesn't seem to want to slow down. I hate that I have to fill my blog with crazy twists and turns of life events in a weeks time instead of being able to just think about what I want to do about the curveballs I seem to be thrown everyday.

For instance...told toolbox to get out of my life. He obviously doesn't realize I meant this in a literal sense because he wanted to hang out on Sunday, but I was strong and my will power finally prevailed and I told him no way. I am hoping that he finally can take the hint on this one and realize I said no because I have no interest in ever allowing him back into my life in any capacity. It feels amazingly liberating and I am really happy I finally made this decision for myself.

Old man that hates me at work put in his two weeks notice. As jubilated as I was to hear of this, it totally screws us over and puts me in a really hard position because I now need to find another coach ASAP. I need an assistant, a male, with great skills. Why is it that I am always trying to find the perfect guy? I am convinced that they do not exist in any capacity on this Earth. Those that are "perfect" are robots, I am sure of this and whoever is upstairs is mocking our search efforts.

The banker asked me out for Saturday. He has cancelled twice on me now and I am really not sure if I even want to go down this road. He has made a lot of effort these past couple days via text messaging. I think that I am hesitant for a reason. The chemistry is just not there so I think I am going to spend my Saturday alone rather than trying to force myself to like someone just to like someone.

I hate text messaging by the way. How impersonal. If you want to get to know me...call me. You cannot dictate tone on a text message and it is really annoying.

For instance...got set up with this guy who used to be roommates with Ellis and Lange, my friends husband and boyfriend. Great guy, really cute, really interested. We had a great time Saturday night, but it would be nice to be able to hang out with him without alcohol. We have been texting back and forth since...texting. Not calling. How am I supposed to get to show you how wittingly charming I am through a text message? You cannot plant the seed of love via text and I commend anyone who can. I am not that charming with my words and usually say something idiotic which usually gets taken the wrong way and then poof I ruin my chances.

Ah if it's meant to be it will be. I don't particularly have time to worry about it at the moment with work drama, a huge evolution paper to write on the musculoskeletal kinetics of bipedal locomotion, a take home exam, a scientific paper on my Haitian findings and USAG state championships this weekend. I can officially say my brain is mush. I need a change and I believe the change needs to start with me. Not really sure how to go about that but I am going to enjoy myself a little bit while I figure it out. Change number one....Let the powers at be, be and allow them to dictate my life this week. I don't have time to figure it out!

Have to go research now. I will see you soon blog...I promise!