So the tool box text me last night to ask if I had plans. Not like he was asking me to do anything so I am not really sure why he was texting. Probably because somehow those kind of guys have this sixth sense about it when you're decided to emotionally let them go. It's like a radar goes off..."oh she's over me, I need to text so I stay on her mind." I did not succumb to his lack of charm and just ignored it.
I went out with an old friend of mine on Thursday which turned out to be a really fun and semi-regretful night. This is the exact type of guy I'm looking for and I'm just not sure what his intentions are. It would be nice if it were to turn into something more than a friendship but we'll see how it goes and for the time being I'm not going to worry about it.
I was supposed to go out on a date with the banker tonight and he said he had to do "emergency babysitting" of his sister's kids. My instincts are telling me that this is not exactly the truth since there was no apology or even feelings of regret in the text, considering this is the second time I have made plans with him and the second time he has had to cancel due to babysitting. My mom and I agree I should chalk this one up to a loss and move on. She even thinks it sounded fishy and if her and I are actually agreeing on something that I would say that it's probably a correct indication of something going on.
So I am going to attempt to get my taxes done. Drink the beer in the fridge in my apartment that has broken. Yes, fridge has broken. The milk I threw out today was my first clue and upon sticking half my body in it and realizing it was colder outside than in the fridge, I now have to clean it out before I have rotting food everywhere. Considering it is Easter weekend and the super will not be out until Monday, it's a good thing I did not go grocery shopping today! I try to tell myself that it is nights like these that the unexpected happen but I am not holding out much hope for that.
Honestly my question is where is he? And why can't I find him? Is it time for me to let go of my idiotic romantic ideals and give up the search for Mr. Right? I just don't understand why I cannot meet a decent, attractive man. Why can't my love life be like one in the movies? A better question, why do I even keep thinking that it can be this way? I am not complaining here when I make this statement, even though I know it is going to sound conceited and like I am, but it is hard to meet decent guys when you are an attractive person. Attractive girls have to constantly wonder if guys are only with them because they want to sleep with them. Most people look at me and at first glance think that I am not smart, they think I am a crazy party girl with no morals or education simply because I am attractive. It's a false stigma that I am getting really sick of trying to prove wrong.
I'll keep you updated...I'm going to go continue to do nothing...maybe start my taxes...cause I really do need to get those done!
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