Goodbye to You

So I decided to give destiny a little kick in the pants today. So a few posts ago, I had mentioned the awkwardness of one of my evenings out by running into my said ex boyfriend, whom of which I still have a secret crush on. Well both him and I like MMA fighting and we actually had a really good date at an MMA fight. Well I actually ended up seeing him out AGAIN on Saturday night. (Destiny, Fate, God, Buddha, whomever is up there, needs to stop torturing me, I know). When I saw today that there is an upcoming fight at the end of February, I saw it as a perfect opportunity to ask him to go. So I did. He said, he'd love to go, as long as he doesn't have to work. So cross your fingers blogger that he doesn't have to work! This may be my "in," ....again.

On a separate yet related note, I told Ryan that I just didn't have time to date at this point. Which isn't entirely true, even if I meant that deep down I know there is not enough of a connection between us to create any long term meaningful relationship. It's sad because we have been friends for a long time and I think, I take that back, I know, this will effect our friendship but I needed to be honest, even if it wasn't enitirely true, wow isn't that a paradox. Nonetheless, I do feel bad but he asked me to do something Thursday, I already had plans. He asked me to do something Friday and I already had plans and he said he is giving up trying to hang out with me. Which is understandable, I would too. I told him, I am busy, you need to make plans with me. He says, he doesn't make plans. In that case, we're not going to work. So for now it is probably for the best. If we had a really good connection, I would feel a lot more upset about it than I actually do.

So for now, I have to go to the lab. I will write more later!