Plan A

I went to the bookstore yesterday and just wondered around for about an hour or so. I was acting out of desperation, needing to do something that I enjoyed to break up my work week a little bit and mundane monotony that has become my life. I wanted to buy this book, 1000 places to see before you die. I bought it and decided to make it my life's mission to try and see as many places in the book as possible. Mind you, these places are all over the world and expensive, so that might be difficult to obtain. Nonetheless, it never hurts to dream or have a handy guide to help steer you in the right direction when I find time to actually take a vacation.

I wonder how you get to become a travel writer. Or hold a job like the lady on the travel channel. I would love to find out. I'm going to have to look into this I think. If I could find an opportunity like that I would jump on it in a heart beat, at least for a year or so. Traveling the world is a dream of mine. Funding this dream, of course, is always the issue.

However, I did happen to come across this book called Skinny Bitchin. I read their previous book, Skinny Bitch, about the dangers of the food we eat and that we all should just become Vegans. After trying this until I was diagnosed with a disease that contradicted this lifestyle entirely, I learned two concepts about the book. One; you're skinny because unless you have a personal chef or time for creative recipes, there isn't much you can eat. Two; You're a bitch, because all you want is a f*n cheeseburger every time you bite into some bland tofu and spinach salad. Anyway, I picked up this book, and here it is a journal filled with inspirational quotations and helpful writing guides to becoming the best you can and fulfilling your dreams and your goals. Sticking with my goal of this being the year of me and self discovery, I bought it, and it has turned into my personal travel bible that I actually cannot wait to write in everyday. It challenges my thoughts on life and my intellect and I love it.

On a separate yet slightly related note, I'm starting to be viewed by others as a work-a-holic and I don't think I like this very much. It would be one thing if I worked all of the time in a job that would provide me with the ability to move up in my position, but with my work, I hold the highest position you can have without being an owner of your own company. Being an owner, is not my goal, and I don't think I like the fact that I have forever hit a glass ceiling with what I do. Of course there are always more goals to achieve, more accreditation's and awards and honors, all which are hard to obtain and are hard to do when you are of such a young age. I am twenty four, and being that young and being a director of a program such as mine is a feat in itself. Still I keep wanting more in my life and I am not able to pursue it because of my long strenuous hours. It's sad when school and work are both my plan B in my life. I still have yet to define plan A. This is my problem. I am spending so much time working on my back up plans that I have neglecting to even determine a Plan A.

This year I plan on figuring out my plan A.