Venting...

I am really annoyed right now and I just need an opportunity to get it off of my chest. First of all, I haven't had a day off for almost two weeks. In fact it will be two weeks of straight work by the time my day off on Friday rolls around. Not to mention the fact that due to another competition I also have to work Sunday as well as all weekend next weekend, and the following weekend, and also the following weekend. After Friday, my next day off isn't going to be until February 2oth. So on top of already having a hard time finding time for myself, dating is obviously difficult when you are never home. I've been gone since Friday at 5:30 in the morning. I got home tonight at almost 6:00pm and I wanted to take a nap and just lay around the house. I have been working twelve hour days for the past week without a day off. The last thing I want to do is go anywhere, do anything. Ryan just simply did not understand that and was mad at me for not wanting to hang out tonight. Hello, this is why I am single. I'm selfish and busy and simply do not have time for everyday annoyances like this. On top of that, I am annoyed with work. There is so much to be done and I am unmotivated to do it because I don't think it will matter anyway. I am annoyed with myself for still living at home, I am annoyed that I pay $300 a month to a credit card whose balance never seems to come down. I am annoyed because the guy that I really want to be with doesn't know that my feelings even exist anymore. I am ready to settle down. I am annoyed that my life isn't settling down. I am annoyed that I cannot go on vacation and I am annoyed that I don't have enough time in the day or enough money to do the things that I really want to do.