Moving Mayheim

I'M ALL MOVED IN! I am unfortunately not even staying my first night in my apartment, however, because I came back to town to hang out with the banker and some friends, so instead of driving all the way back out there, I am just staying at my parents. But my brother and the tool box (who was everything but that today) helped get me all moved in today. Ryan was wonderful. He got a ride out to my house last night, he stayed with me, made me breakfast, helped me finish packing and spent the entire day helping me move into my new apartment. I wouldn't have been able to do it without him and it actually mean't a lot to me. I know I said I was done and over him but we had a great day and we actually got an opportunity to talk about what we were doing. Which of course we came up with no conclusions. He was M.I.A because he just needed some time to himself, considering that life has got him in the dumps these days, I understand. But I realized that he needs to work on himself before he can be with anyone in his life. He said he will always have feelings for me and he wants to be with me, but he wants to be able to bring something to the table for me. In many ways, I can respect this. No matter how many girls he is talking to, I am the one who has his heart. And we decided to just be really good friends, so in other words, things really aren't going to change between us, unless I meet someone who has potential of being a relationship and then that is when I will cut him off and we can no longer speak to each other. Both of us are confused and even through talking it out, it didn't help clear confusion, it just laid some feelings out on the table and for now I can't ask for much more.

Well blogger, I am exhausted and have the morning off but it is another busy day tomorrow. I will talk to you soon.