Insane in the Membrane

Why can't I stop thinking about him? Has he honestly gotten to me this much or is it just boredom? Why do I want him to call, text, something. Why do I like my life more with him in it? He doesn't offer me anything. He isn't particular sweet or charming. I don't know what he is doing, who he is with and this is not the way that I want to live my life or things I want to think about in a relationship. What relationship? Do we have a relationship? What are we even doing? After seven months if we don't know then it is not meant to be. Seven months...really...I don't even know if I want him to be my boyfriend and if I don't know if I want him to be my boyfriend than I can obviously live without him. Yes. I am going to tell him this. I don't care if it is through email, facebook, via text, my phone call or in person, I am going to say it. I cannot keep driving myself crazy on these sleepless nights wondering what he is doing. My life is more sane without him. I need some sanity in my life.