Night Numero Uno

I officially stayed my first night in my new apartment! I made my first, lonesome, grocery excursion and tried my hardest to be motivated to put this place together but I simply was not. I need to concentrate on my microbiology test I have tomorrow and I need to get some things done that I have been putting off. Ironically I am still putting them off as I sit here and blog to you. It was a busy successful weekend of moving and limos to Cleveland. I even had another date on Friday with Jacob and spent time with the tool box. I even broached the awkwardness of our situation and had a nice discussion with him about what we are doing and of course neither one of us knew so neither one of us decided to do anything about it. I think I am attracted to him like one longs for long lazy sunny days. You have this one great day and then it is over, lost with the setting sun and the wind. When the next day isn't as nice you begin to wonder when you will get the feelings back from the day before. As lazy days become more spaced apart, you begin to long for them more, until once again they arrive and you are elated. This is what he makes me feel like. He is in and out of my life so often, I begin to long for the companionship that we share when we are together. Neither one of us is ready or capable of relationships right now and the small amount of time that we share together gives us enough energy to muster the courage to wait and linger for another wonderful day together. But in the meantime, life goes on.

I had mixed emotions from last night. The reality set in that I am alone. I am all by myself in a new city with new people and new things to experience and I am doing so all by myself. There is nobody around to do anything for me and it is going to prove to be a test of my independence. I am close enough to home to go and visit, but not on a daily basis like I used to be able to. Mom and Dad cannot simply swing by on their way home from work if I did need something. It would need to be planned, concocted and it would be a hassle. As of right now, I have no television hooked up and so there is nothing but stillness and my thoughts to pass the time when I am alone. However, I am excited because I think that this will be the most wonderful experience for me. I cannot wait for what is to come in my life!