Starting the TA next week!

I have been wanting to try her method for well over a year now. I just saw last night that she has come out with a book and I pre-ordered it last night on Amazon. It was only $15, which is a lot cheaper than her box set of DVD's which is $100.00. Her method, coupled with my new 30 day Urban Active pass was a sign from above saying "Michele, it's only 30 days. Change your life in 30 days! You can do it!

Her book should be here on Tuesday so I will blog about my journey!

randoms

Some things I have learned about life:

The people in your life are placed in your path for a reason. Some will stay for a season, and some will remain for a lifetime. You should cherish those relationships either way.

Luck is established when preparation meets persistence.

“The most unfair thing about life is the way it ends. I mean, life is tough. It takes up a lot of your time. What do you get at the end of it? A Death! What's that, a bonus? I think the life cycle is all backwards. You should die first, get it out of the way. Then you live in an old age home. You get kicked out when you're too young, you get a gold watch, you go to work. You work forty years until you're young enough to enjoy your retirement. You do drugs, alcohol, you party, you get ready for high school. You go to grade school, you become a kid, you play, you have no responsibilities, you become a little baby, you go back into the womb, you spend your last nine months floating...

...and you finish off as an orgasm.”

You need to constantly be planing, know your next move, know what you want in life. Things don't just fall into place for people, good things happen to those that go after the things they want to experience in life. Time is of the essence. You will always want more of it, you will always be fighting it and you will always lose it.

is it possible?

I received a random text message from a friend of mine the other day that simply said..."Some of the best relationships begin as booty calls." Is it possible do you think? I will elaborate more on this later as I am currently sitting at a restaurant waiting for my always late boss.

Ask and you shall receive!

Ask and you shall receive I believe is the correct phrase. I said I needed a job and lo and behold, that day my friend tells me that they need help on Sundays from 1-8. Perfect! So I applied. Hopefully I will get it, which I will, because I am overly qualified for the position and hello car payment money and hello extra shopping, er I mean savings money each month!

I also applied for a fantastic position in Indianapolis. Yes, it's far. Yes I will have to quit my current job. Yes I will have to move. But it comes with domestic and international travel. Dream job! Even though I am nowhere near qualified for it, I hope they at least consider me!

New new new!

I need another job. Not because I need more money. Not because I cannot make my rent or my car payment but because I am simply selfish. I want to buy more clothing and feed my ever need to shop shop shop until I drop. I cannot help that I have an insatiable appetite for things I do not need in all aspects of my life. I cannot wait until I can one day afford many things I do not need such as alice and olivia dresses, prada bags and marc jacobs aviators. Life has simply become stale at the moment. I am stuck in a rut and am not sure which direction to go to dig myself out of it. I am lonely but do not particularly feel like dating. I am overweight but do not particularly feel like busting my ass for hours a day at the gym. I am unmotivated but don't even know which direction to begin to motivate myself to forward any career I potentially have in mind for myself. Perhaps it is because I have become such a planner. I am anticipating life in the future and know what is in store is loan re-payments, car payments, house mortgages and endless fertility treatments to bear children that I may not particularly even want at the time. So maybe my being un-motivated is my way of just taking a breather. I am enjoying being broke, dreaming of fancy things. Coming home to a sink full of dishes. Going to the gym early in the morning because who am I kidding, I want that body. Because I know I need to get right with myself before I can begin getting right with anyone else.

So here and now I am making a pact with myself. The purpose of me buying new clothes is because mine don't fit right now. Well this body that I am in is not my body nor the body that I want. So I am not going to buy any new clothes until I lost at least the weight that I have put on. Not only will I have more of a wardrobe selection but then I won't waste money on buying fat pants when I don't plan on being fat.

I am also going to give up men. As my best friend said to me last night..."Michele, boys and shopping are not hobbies." She is right. They are simply something to pre-occupy my time. Well I can find a lot more valuable things to occupy my time. Like my singles' list and becoming a gym junkie. Because that is what I am going to do; become a gym junkie. Stop donating to the gym and use that money I spend every month. Get my body back, look amazing, have more clothes and thus more men! Brilliant. It's no wonder skinny girls have so much fun. But my goal is not to be skinny, it is to be fit. Madonna arms without the veins, Carrie underwood legs in the cut off jeans and Ciara's stomach fit with the slight indintation of the "v" I admire so much on the opposite sex.

Since I am taking a semester off of school and just working, really what else do I have to do. This will be my project semester. Get right with myself September, October, November, December. I am excited for where this new path may eventually leave.

Expectations

It is not the actions of others or occurances that let us down, it is our own expectations. Let me explain. Sometimes when we want something in life, we tend to fantasize about it. We recreate scenarios in our minds of what we will do when we accomplish this goal, what we will say. Often times we create the most pristine image. The most surreal. We re-create feelings and emotions. We play out others reactions and responses. How exciting it will be. But when we reach what we have dreamed of, it often times is not what we had pictured in our minds. We are so often quick to blame the people associated with our vision. They didn't do this, they acted this way. In reality we set the bar too high for ourselves sometimes. We play it up too much in our minds. So much so that it is our own expectations that begin to let us down.

What I am proposing is to walk through life with no expectations at all. Do not go into a store expecting to find the perfect pair of pants. Do not wake up in the morning and expect to look perfect. Do not expect him to call. Do not expect others to create happy memories for you. Instead look at each day as a blessing and a new opportunity to create memories for yourself that you did not think were possible. Look at each moment as an opportunity to respond and not react. Perhaps then we can lead our own lives under the direction of our hearts and not with our minds. It's more fun that way anyway!

A photograph says a thousand words...

This girl is by far one of my favorite photographers. She is an amateur from England. I love following her on flickr because I love her photographs. Check her out!

http://www.flickr.com/search/?q=bella+kotak

Stuck like glue!

Had a great day with my Breezy elmo-sizing and enjoying the beautiful fall weather! She showed me the new Sugarland video and I absolutely love it! This girl is adorable!

Yay for time off!

Yay for five days off! I am completely looking forward to relaxing and doing whatever I want for the next five days. Well I'm going to spend today doing whatever I want and actually making a to do list of things I need to get done. I don't get anything done without lists, which is a little pathetic but at least I am willing to admit to my semi A.D.D nature.

So big news! I BOUGHT A CAR! My very first brand new car and I am a mess of mixed emotions. I love the car. I love to be in the car. I want to drive everywhere in the car. Read the manual, figure out all it's bells and whistles, get to know it inside and out. I have entered into a long committed relationship with this car that I hope will last a minimum of 6 years because that is when it will be paid off. Unless I happen to meet a doctor who falls in love with me and pays it off in less time, which would be even greater! However, even though I know I will be fine in making the payments, it is a HUGE purchase. I mean an 18,000 dollar purchase. Something I do not take lightly and something I unfortunately had to do without much thought since the bumper car took a shit on me, was not driveable and I needed a car within a weeks time. So one thing crossed off my new life list for the year.

I have to say that this year has been an absolute whirlwind. Sometimes you think that your life is so stagnant when you are caught up in a routine. Wake up, go to work, come home, clean go to bed do it all again. It isn't until you look back on your year that you realize how much you have changed and how much you have accomplished. I was reflecting on my life the other day and I am at a loss with how much life has changed for me in a years time.

Since October of last year I have done so many things which include the following: A life changing break up; moving into my very own apartment; getting a promotion and a raise at work; writing and starting the process of publishing my first book; buying my new car; losing lovers; losing friends; making new friends. And soon to add to that; changing schools and careers. This technically has all been done in less than a years time. It's exciting and I can't wait to see what my quarter life crisis year has in store for me!

More later...gotta go get a workout in!